Ohh my life is so amazing(:

16.02.2012 в 21:03 Блог

my feelings for today

my feelings? well I'm not really sure… I have that kind of strange feeling in my heart it almost squeezes and I don't like it. Is it because I can't find a job or the classes I don't understand? My parents make it somehow worse telling me that I have to study hard (which I do) and they expect all the A's from me and I'm so afraid to make them disapointed.
Watching Gossip girl helps a little but it is still hard to breathe. I don't know what to do. what?what?what? Why every time I want something really bad things never go my way?
Hope everything is gonna be OK!

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14.02.2012 в 18:52 Блог

<3

Happy Valentine's Day ppl! Spread loveeeeeeeeee!

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12.02.2012 в 23:16 Блог

make yourself happy (for myself)

OK so the previous post was very depressing and it was like 10 min ago and I decided to make a post about what makes me happy and keep going.
1. most important and inspiring for me right now is going to US. I love love absolutely love US and hope I will feel better there!
2. my family. even though sometimes we have misunderstanding I love them and enjoy skyping them cuz they always have smth interesting and funny to say. Especially my little brother!
3. Pilates. I started to attend pilates again and I feel that I do somthing useful for me and my body. I always feel good after pilates! (but my body hurts right now LOL)
4. Fashion blogs and youtube videos. I lovee them! Never tired to seek out smth new&interesting.
5. Playing Mall World on facebook. I knowww it is childish but hey who cares! I am child inside!
6. Writing in this blog. Even though I know that no one reads it I still write it, because I do it for myself and it helps to clear out my mind.
7. Making something. I love DIYs and wish I could make smth and design all the time.
8. Chocolate. Literally makes me happy. I don't eat it that often but whenever I do I am happy^^
9. Movies. Some movies really inspires me and make me feel better. Want to rewatch LOL, Penelopy, Public Enemies, 500 days of summer, Charlie and CHF, Love, Wedding, Marriage. My internet sucks right now so I can't do it now, BUT I hope I could do it some time later!
10. Korean movies. ADORE!<3
11. Shopping! It supposed to be like 3rd-4th place but I forgot about that. «When everything sucks shopping helps!» — that s about me!

I guess I'll add smth later. Have to read that and make myself happy

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12.02.2012 в 22:28 Блог

Why do I feel so lonely?

Why do I feel so lonely? Can't really answer this question. I just do and it drives me crazy. I keep thinking about how lonely I am and how my life is not as interesting as it could be...I have/may b had my best friend back at my country but we don't talk as often and it seems that we got so distant and we don't have smth in common anymore. goshh how come this happened? It seemed like we were laughing just yesterday having fun and goofing off and now it's over! I still prefer to think that I have friends in other countries where I lived before but distance makes its job and relationships are not as tight.
Right now I'm at the university and I don't really have friends. Or may b I don't consider some ppl as my friends? May be the problem is in myself? Sometimes I feel like I don't even want to make friends and I just don't care and I hate that because deep inside me some voice says I NEED A FRIEND! I had one here and he kinda betraid me. He thinks he is cooler than me and I'm not sociable. Could a GOOD friend do that? May be we weren't even friends...i don't know...
This stupid Valentine's day makes it worse. Even though I say I don't want anyone I know that I do and I just keep lying to myself...
I don't think any of you would comment that but anyway...just expressing my feelings...
Hope everything will change!