Большинство девушек ищет такого парня, который бы

их смешил, но в то же время смог защитить. Другими

словами, им нужен клоун-ниндзя.

OK. Here I am. Writing about this again. To be honest, Im kinda sick of those posts already. But I have to write it to keep my head clear and organized! Yes, LOL, it does sound weird, I knowww. So this post is about Daniel, actually, and what I feel about him.

Im not sure what I think about him right now (like I wanted to write this post for 3 days or so) but I forgot what I wanted to say ahah! I was angry at him, at myself for no reason. Im not talking to him for almost 3 days and I feel like Im sorta forgetting him. Which is good! Why is it good? Because I know all we have is not serious, he is in Sweden, Im in different country, I don't really know him, he doesn't know me, he can have somebody he already likes and I might have someone in the near future. (I hope)So yes, for now he is my friend. Long distance relationships suck. So let's try long distance freindship! And friends don't talk everyday, which works for me perfectly! Deeply in my heart I do constantly want to talk to him, see him, make it true love story but I know it won't happen. However, I do believe that if something is meant to happen, it will find a way to happen! U know, like destiny and all that kind of thingsI do feel like he is afraid, just like me, this is why he is so careful but AGAIN it is a good thing for me. I love Tussan(his cat) though!

My table is a mess...so is my mind

I feel like I'm a bad friend. I know, just writing about this doesn't make me any better but I do feel bad. Why am I even writing about this?...I guess to remember to be a good friend next time.

OH so happy The Awkward. «new» season slash series are out and keep me interested. Who'd she pick? Jake or Matty? Anddd my favorite «Switched at birth»! Omg I was waiting for their new episodes so baddd! Hold on...Do I sound like TV-shows addict?...I think I do, but guess what? I don't care(; wink wink

Oh wow! This is what I needed! Good exercise! Just came from stretching and it feels like I shaked all my depression off me. Feels good(: I feel alive and this is how I want to feel all the timeand in order to feel that I have to go to stretching! (Hey, common now, Im not that happy all the time

I stoped caring about stuff again. Feels so empty. Had a deep conversation with my friend, soo got some things straight. I don't want to chaise after somebody, I don't want Elzemko, he is such a «bulgarian». I'm over Bobby and Im glad it ended quiet and without any drama. I still want to talk to Daniel and see him all the time, but I'll try my best not to obsess over him and take him as a friend. Talking to my parents (especially my mom) make me more depressed than I already am. Have to cut those talks. Study is all I have left to do, even though its boring and I hate it. But if I won't do even this, I'll go crazy. May be its autumn and the weather that make me feel depressed or may be its the way I am. Not sure.

Hey Javkhlan! I love youuu!

I should seriously stop...thinking about you...

you are addictive sexy thing which I can't get out of my mind...

 because when I don't speak to you or see you, it hurts and I don't want to be addicted to something. Its like drugs. But its you.

So I might think about you...sometimes. Im a humanbeing, right(: I make mistakes. but...I'll try not to.