For N.

I am sorry for not believing in your relationships. I am sorry for not keeping up the conversation when you say how much you like him and what he said. I wish you just knew, somehow felt, that I am broken. I stoped believing in love and sencerity of the relationships long time ago. Everytime you say what he said and how good he makes you feel, it hurts me because it makes me bring up some memories I wish to forget. 

I want you to love. I hope you love. 

May be I already had some experience in what you have right now, not a good one. This is why, may be, I don't trust them.

Anyway, you won't read this for sure but it's not about you, it's about me... 

• having secret contacts on your phonebook
• learning new languages just by asking guys you met
• when guys say they like you and you don't care
• music you shouldn't listen
• naughty devil inside you
• when you're mind is dirtier than you are

I'm sooo tired of people lately...I don't know why. I don't feel like talking and don't feel like people talking to me. Just need some break and change I guesssss

OhMy GoOoD (british accent)

I am obsessed with Nico Mirallegro, I absolutelly adore everythin about this boy, oh boyyyyy! He is the perfect mixture of bad&sweet and he reminds me of my very first 12-year-old Karina's crush (lol I guess I started liking blond pale guys long time ago)

i'll tell you why I disappeared from your list and I bet you didn't believe me anyway, I once liked you as a person, felt like there is someone who understands me and with whom it was so easy to talk to. The more I talked to you the more I liked you, but then I had to put an end to it, because it wasn't real. You didn't know me, I didn't know you and I didn't believe it. It is silly as fuck, I know. and childish, very childish. I wanted you to move on, and find a real one, the one who'll you love and be loved by you, because you are, in my opinion, a great person and I wanted you to be happy although I knew I'll miss you. And I did miss you. I don't know if you ever thought about me or not, but it doesn't matter. 

But now I added you again, don't ask why. I guess I just wanted to know if you are alive and happy. However, it is not as it used to be. and will never be because people change as time changes. Right now Im being pathetic and rediculous, writing to you every day. I guess I'll stop after this message. I don't like to be annoying and it's funny looking at myself trying to get your attention. And this wasn't supposed to be so long. Sorry. I'm thinking about deleting it right now, so if you got it, I guess I am brave enough to talk about my feelings..(: You can laugh or whatever, it is ok. I just wanted you to know. And I see that you are happy and moved on, which is great. I'm honestly happy for you(:

Ok, I don't know why I did it, but I don't regret it. Whatever will happen is meant to happen...

AND OMG HE ANSWERED:

im sorry that i have been distant, but its hard for me to try and balance everything… i liked u to… u feel like a very nice person. or i know u are… even thou u are beeing silly right now ur an amazing person and u also need to find someone. and i know u will. whith that cute face im accually touched that u think of me like u do. and i do think that u are brave for shearing those feelings… i have been thinking where u are now. and i know. better times will come anyways. im happy that u added me again. why loose contact with a nice person like u i remember that we had great chats… and i know u are an honest and beautiful person on inside and outside.

OK, I'M OFICIALLY DYING FROM EMBARRASSMENT!

I added him again. Such a weak person...I know, I am...
just missing him was too much for me I guess

I know I promissed no more posts about him but this one is about him. He added me again and he s online..but he doesn't answer, he gets all the messages but doesn't answer. What should I do? Why does he act like that? May b he s offended? Or pissed? Or ignoring?

idk may be it was a bad idea from the beginning. Yes, it was. 

ideas of the pics i wanna take:

• butterfly blow
• fake smoke
• ..........

NO NO NO NO NO I DON'T WANNA BE HER! I DON'T! YOU CAN DO IT KARINA, YOU SHOULD BECAUSE THERE IS NOTHING WORSE THAT BEING LIKE HER!