So here I am. Still writing. Still alone BUT not lonely! I still got my friends and family and my heart is full of love for those people. And I am greatful for having them!

However let's straight things up concerning boys...

B.y. It ended. Long time ago and I have nothing to say about us because there is no us.

I.o. Bulgarian. Lmao. This says everything about him! Not my type but my kind of person. Interesting, funny and smart. I like talking to him but I understand that we are not meant to be together. 

I.n. Dickhead! Seriously! Dickhead. But damnnn his eyes! Flirting is over and all that left is: «Hi, what's up?» Just have to remember that he is a Bulgarian(: AND I'm NOT a nationalist!

D.l. ohhh this one will be hard to explain. I think I got sick of liking him. I think I like the image in my head more than I like him. I have a feeling that he is a player but there is so much history between us I just can't help the memories! Today I still like him more than anyone else but maybe I like him for too long. Maybe I have to move on. And this time I have to mean it!

B.o New friend. Just a friend for now. I don't even know why I included him in this list lmao. I am saving him for my friend because I think he is a good person. He graduated from an Ivy school and he got a good, well paid job. He seems like a nice mature guy and it's what every girl needs. Sustainability.

ohhh and music! Definitely better than all of the guys above!

and of courseeee! How could I not include superamazing and hot Dave Franco(:

Ok, this guy is something(: Love the voice. Check his other songs out, he got a lot of good ones!

    What if your life is a mess. You're stuck between wants and needs. Your thoughts are chaotic. You want to be out there but instead you're just sitting in your dark room and listening to Bob Dylan. What if you want to love but the love you want no longer exists. You want to run away but there is no place to run to. And you are too lazy. You are too scared. Pathetic...

I crave him. I crave him so bad it aches. From all the men in this world I want him. I want to possess his body, heart and soul and I want him to have me all. Geez, he makes me go so insane and forget everyone else just by  telling me that he wants to talk to me and he misses me. How powerful that man is? How deep in my heart is he? I just pray not to lose control and stop craving...

I miss my life being exciting and full of smiles and hugs...I know that we create our own lives and the way we live depends completely on us, but it seems that I lost «something» along the way and I don't know how to get it back. Sometimes I go back in order to find what I lost but after, I realize that was a bad idea because past seems so much better than the present and it makes me feel miserable...

Sometimes what you think is easy to achieve might not be as easy as you thought...

She is a dreamer and… a believer. She likes to believe in a beautiful lie she has created for herself. She hopes for a «one day, one day I will». And she will! One day. I believe in her.

Good music gives her chills. It is the only thing that reminds her of the dream she dreams and gets her going. Keeps her fighting. And she is a fighter! I'm certain of that.

Lipstick is not enough to make her feel pretty. Compliments either. Too many thoughts in her head. Mainly bad ones. Scary and genius at the same time! And they often don't make any sense. I still can't understand her.

that moment when money makes you feel miserable...

Have you noticed how this era of gentlemen is slowly approaching? Men wear suits in music videos and movies. They no longer sing about sex as some violent animal act but rather as an act of love. They smell like class, expensive taste, good cars and champagne on top of the Eiffel Tower. And I'm loving it!